I wish there was a pill I could take to make me feel better about being at work right now. I don't think I've really understood people who take antidepressants until now. I usually don't really like taking pills, not even over the counter stuff like Tylenol, but if it could make me feel better at this point, I would take it in a second.

The problem is homesickness--it's a thousand times easier to go to work or school when your homelife sucks. Work or school becomes a way to get out of your bad situation, and enjoy a few hours of peace and dependability. But I have a warm sleepy dog, a warm sleepy cat, and a comfy bed at home waiting for me right now, and even though you may think this is a minor complaint due to laziness, I am so sick about being at work right now, I feel nauseous.

The problem is the atmosphere here sucks. It's humid in my room, and there's roaches that like to pop up in random places. There's also a huge industrial air conditioning unit that makes a constant loud background hum that I can't think over. And the building is so old and industrial looking, I feel like I am in jail.

Thinking about this school feels like pinpricks in my brain.

When oh when will my three day weekend come? Technically it's in 3 days but it feels like an eternity. This must be what hell is like--the promise of relief that never comes.