Going back to work after a week-long break is so painful. I can only imagine how bad it will be after Christmas break...which starts in 3 weeks!!! It is the only thing keeping me going today.
I started dreading coming back to work Saturday night, in my sleep. I kept having stress dreams about deciding to call in sick Monday morning and then not being able to because they couldn't find a sub, and then another dream about not knowing how to fill in a census questionnaire. I don't know why I had a stress dream about my census job when it was the easiest job in the world.
Then last night while I was sleeping, I was thinking about what I was going to do today with my classes. Blerg.
On a happier note, Aaron and I are going to go on a short road trip over Christmas! We might take Dwight and Big Poppa! Wee!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
What up homies!
I took yesterday (Monday) off because
1. I had to work on Saturday...Took my AP Biology kids to their AP Test Prep Session at another high school.
2. Mondays are C days, which means that I see all my classes for 45 minutes each. So, if I skip a Monday, everyone is still on schedule, and no class is a whole class period ahead of another.
3. I could not have continued another day without taking a 3 day weekend.
So, the upside is, this week is a 4 day week (holla!), and I only have to get through this week and the next till Thanksgiving Break.
The downside is, I am super depressed today, and out of practice keeping my "workface" on. My workface consists of the following: pretending I am a figure of authority to 14-18 year olds, and pretending that I am an appropriate person, not one who is prone to talking like a sailor or letting out bodily noises at inopportune times at all. Not at all!
In any case, all of these factors make today seem interminable. And I can't make myself be as productive as I need to be. I just keep thinking about how much I want to take a trip to Orlando, FL this Christmas Break to go to the Harry Potter Theme Park. It is definitely one of my major life goals.
Oh, and I must tell you about Saturday, when I took my girls to the Prep Session.
I was told that I had to go to the Prep Session with the girls, and that I could not send them without going myself. But once I got there, there was nothing to do. I believe I was supposed to be doing something helpful, but I don't know what that was supposed to be. So, I spent my time hiding from other teachers in hopes of not being finagled into doing something helpful.
At one point, I snuck out behind the cafeteria, sat behind a wall to hide myself, and just contemplated the trees. It felt strangely like those wonderful UIL Competition days in high school, when we had to do our competitions, and then chill for the rest of the day, burning contraband incense matches and taking walks in the woods. (Elissa & Rachel: Remember??)
Anyways, sometimes I feel like the only professional-aged person who has failed to gain professional-aged morals. In fact, I feel like my work morals have only decreased since graduating college.
In fact, after sitting a while behind the wall, I decided I might as well skip till the end of the day, when I had to make sure my girls had a ride home, and so I called Aaron, and we went to Sonic to hang out till the end of the day. It was amazing. I finally got the chance to skip school with a hot guy!
This is a super disjointed post. Eh, I can't be bothered to improve it, till later at least.
I took yesterday (Monday) off because
1. I had to work on Saturday...Took my AP Biology kids to their AP Test Prep Session at another high school.
2. Mondays are C days, which means that I see all my classes for 45 minutes each. So, if I skip a Monday, everyone is still on schedule, and no class is a whole class period ahead of another.
3. I could not have continued another day without taking a 3 day weekend.
So, the upside is, this week is a 4 day week (holla!), and I only have to get through this week and the next till Thanksgiving Break.
The downside is, I am super depressed today, and out of practice keeping my "workface" on. My workface consists of the following: pretending I am a figure of authority to 14-18 year olds, and pretending that I am an appropriate person, not one who is prone to talking like a sailor or letting out bodily noises at inopportune times at all. Not at all!
In any case, all of these factors make today seem interminable. And I can't make myself be as productive as I need to be. I just keep thinking about how much I want to take a trip to Orlando, FL this Christmas Break to go to the Harry Potter Theme Park. It is definitely one of my major life goals.
Oh, and I must tell you about Saturday, when I took my girls to the Prep Session.
I was told that I had to go to the Prep Session with the girls, and that I could not send them without going myself. But once I got there, there was nothing to do. I believe I was supposed to be doing something helpful, but I don't know what that was supposed to be. So, I spent my time hiding from other teachers in hopes of not being finagled into doing something helpful.
At one point, I snuck out behind the cafeteria, sat behind a wall to hide myself, and just contemplated the trees. It felt strangely like those wonderful UIL Competition days in high school, when we had to do our competitions, and then chill for the rest of the day, burning contraband incense matches and taking walks in the woods. (Elissa & Rachel: Remember??)
Anyways, sometimes I feel like the only professional-aged person who has failed to gain professional-aged morals. In fact, I feel like my work morals have only decreased since graduating college.
In fact, after sitting a while behind the wall, I decided I might as well skip till the end of the day, when I had to make sure my girls had a ride home, and so I called Aaron, and we went to Sonic to hang out till the end of the day. It was amazing. I finally got the chance to skip school with a hot guy!
This is a super disjointed post. Eh, I can't be bothered to improve it, till later at least.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
In response to Aaron B's question, I miss my census job because it was the perfect mix of inactivity, human interaction, and money. When I was working for the census, I would get up in the morning (not too early, because no one else working for the census wanted to wake up too early), drive to Whole Foods to meet my work group, hang out and talk for a while, and get some questionnaires to do. I'd get them done in a short amount of time, clock in my hours, and be done. I miss my hours of daylight at home, lounging and enjoying my time with the creatures. And I had found a group of kindred spirits in my census group--people who do not view work as the most important part of their lives, and thus, were very interesting people.
Teaching is fairly rewarding and interesting, but it's eating my soul, because I do not have enough time to do the things that really matter to me (i.e. improving and culturing my mind through reading and movies, as well as doing my god-given vocation, which is hanging out with my boy, dog, and kitty.)
On the other hand, I am learning science so much better now than I ever did in medical school. And I'm getting paid to learn it, rather than paying some bloated institution to teach it to me.
Teaching is fairly rewarding and interesting, but it's eating my soul, because I do not have enough time to do the things that really matter to me (i.e. improving and culturing my mind through reading and movies, as well as doing my god-given vocation, which is hanging out with my boy, dog, and kitty.)
On the other hand, I am learning science so much better now than I ever did in medical school. And I'm getting paid to learn it, rather than paying some bloated institution to teach it to me.
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