This weekend they are filming Cheer Up, a movie with Tommy Lee Jones in it here in Austin. Me and Rachel and Jennifer Perales were extras on the set (along with 3000 other people) and it was pretty cool. The best thing, though, is that because we went, now we can go next Sunday night from 4pm to 4am and be extras for a night shoot that pays $75. I think I will get a playstation2 with that money...or maybe save up for a 4 track recorder.

it's a cold day in austin, and i am ready to go home. except i wish my home wasn't just 3 hours from here, i wish i lived in boston, or new york or some city like that where you could wander for hours and never feel like anyone knew who you were. in fact, i don't want to go home. i want to go to some unknown city, some unknown place where no one knows who i am and i can just become whatever atmosphere i want to become, wrap myself in someone else's comforting surface level life. frankly i am sick of this life that i have somehow grown or slipped into because it's not one that i would have picked for myself had i had full control of the world. choices that i have made have been affected by countless people, none of them are mine alone, and i am sick of that. i am sick of wanting to be so many people at the same time that i try too hard and am all of them at the same time, resulting in some amorphous mess that is special to no one and nothing.

this morning when i woke up i still smelled like smoke from the alkaline trio concert. in fact my shoes still smell like it. when i'm old and gray cigarette smoke will probably remind me of good times...

anyways, i slept through my swim lessons today, argh!!! then when i woke up i showered, and then went with aaron to watch amores perros at the PCL. it was fun, because we stopped at chipotle first and got burritos and i (stupid me) also got a drink, and so we had to sneak the drink in past the guard. thanks to aaron's cargo pockets, we did it, and felt really proud of ourselves until we saw a sign that said "food and drink ok, just throw it away"--damn our covert operations...lol it was all worth it though, watching a great movie while eating a warm burrito and drinking a sprite...earthly pleasures.

the movie was really good--which surprised me as elissa had told me she hated it because it was insanely violent, but i guess i am quite a bit more sadistic than elissa, so i liked it. it didn't hurt that one of the main guys, octavio, was awesome looking. but no, i'm not that shallow, the movie really did have legitimate benefits to it--the colors were really good; think i'm crazy if you like, but the colors of amores perros were great--gritty yet brilliant, and bright, it was like seeing reality in a romanticized state.

anyways after the movie and some hanging around, me and aaron went to the mall where we picked a really cute curious george stuffed animal that i saw and loved yesterday but was too cheap to buy at the time. but then i kept thinking about it and mentioning how cute it was, and i think aaron got a little tired of that...so he bought it for me to shut me up. lol no just kidding it was very nice : )

but the thing about it that is so cool is that it's wearing striped pajamas, and it looks so comfortable and ready for bed. no more insomnia for the jennifer.



ok well just one more thing about amores perros...wait two more things: 1. "puta madres" means motherfucker in spanish

and now, something more serious. have you ever seen something, or read about something, and just wanted to be in that atmosphere, that situation? and then when you do end up being in the situation you've dreamed about (or at least as close as you could ever get) it doesn't seem the same? well that's how it was in amores perros. no i would never want to raise fighting dogs, or be beat up in mexico, but i do want to be in the mexico portrayed in the movie. gritty, with all sorts of hidden alleyways and crevices full of sun and mystery. but if i ever do go there, i will probably still not be satisfied, because i wouldn't be living the life of any of those characters. it's funny, cause i know i wouldn't want to experience any of the things the characters did, yet, i envy their experience. i guess it's cause life is beautiful when you're on the outside looking in, but it hurts when you live it. anyways, i wonder if someone followed me around filming me on 35mm my entire life and then edited it all together, would that be a pretty movie?



over and out.

argh!! i've had the worst day...B- on my english test when i needed an A, halloween pics not quite as stunning as i had imagined, and they just reminded me all over again that unphotogenocity exists...even if the word doesn't.

oh well, the alternate is too painful to think about...that that is what i really look like-oh my eyes...

anyways, i feel horrible...

go me.

just got back from the catch-22 show at -the backroom-. it was great! a bunch of kids dancing around and sweating for the same purpose, love of the music, atmosphere, and fun.

yeah last year i had already promised myself that if catch-22 ever came to town we were going to make it to their show come rain or hellfire, which is probably what prevented us from being lazy and staying home instead tonight. cause seriously, it's monday night, and i should be studying for my organic chem. but anyways, i'm glad i went because it was one of the best shows i've been to and i would have regretted it if i had not gone.

yeah before the show there were so many things seeming to prevent us from going. aaron found out they were coming just yesterday, so we decided we would go. then, this morning i asked him if he would be going if it weren't for me wanting to go so badly, and he said he wasn't sure, so then the whole day i was thinking that i would be good and stay in to study instead...didn't help that this afternoon i was a slacker and spent two hours watching The Beach on the oxygen channel (no one liked that movie, but no one ever mentioned the amazing visuals in it of the island...) yeah so i was going to atone by skipping the concert.

and then at 4 aaron told me he had to go film anyways, so yeah i thought that was it for the concert.

everything didn't come together after i had already consoled myself with an alternate version of the evening: chipotle burrito bol, picking up pics at eckerds, and going to HEB (why do i love grocery shopping so?)

but instead we decided spur of the moment, at 8:00pm that we would drive over to Riverside and see how much tickets were, and of course, the rest is history.



i love how the guys in catch 22 are so unassuming and yet hilariously cute...i guess its my kind of band

DINOSAUR SOUNDS!!!

Halloween was great--6th street to join all the crazy happenings, with a dominatrix and her slave, Donnie Darko...and a bunch of un-costumed people. I was a schoolgirl, red ribbons for my pigtails, knee high socks, the whole thing. The best compliment (probably cause it was said without perverted undertones) was "Makes me want to go back to school." It was so nice : )

Saturday, my parents and sister came up to surprise me--turns out aaron and rachel and my roommate christina all knew about this--and so my parents took elissa, aaron, and rachel and me and my sister all to play laser tag. it's funny how my 20th birthday party consisted of laser tag and pizza, and it was great! we played against a bunch of little kids, and had codenames and everything. maybe i should have stayed 7. so that was my first surprise birthday party ever.

life is fun...