yipee! i am getting the bike tomorrow, b/c my parents said i could. at this time tomorrow (hopefully, if no one has bought it out from under me) i will be happily bmxing...or not. somehow, i don't think its the lack of an appropriate bike that is preventing me from that particular sport. but nevertheless, i will be riding the bike.

so today was relatively uneventful. rachel came over to do hw, etc., and then i walked her back to her dorm as far as the union, to put up some signs about the band. i say the band, but i mean the prospective band. yeah i met with peter (the future band manager) the other day (risking certain rape) and actually found out that he was actually someone i had met before. he worked at the a/v library in the UGL, so yeah that made me feel better and not like he was some psychopathic rapist. he seems interested in managing a band and i want to be in one, so i guess we're just waiting for other people to call. i put up like 7 signs up today, so hopefully more people will call.

he seems to like stuff like barenaked ladies and coldplay a lot, which is cool, but if i am going to be in a BAND and not just do singer/songwriter stuff, i want it to be relatively hardcore, i won't be satisfied unless it is.

now return to this timeframe, i walked rachel back as far as the union (by the way as we were walking out of Brackenridge, where i live, we debated on whether we should have returned for an umbrella, and decided not to, but it was raining a little, and so when we were walking down the stairs in front of Brackenridge, i slipped and hurt my poor little ass, and it was embarassing. but it was made up for, as me and rachel had tons of laughs talking on the way to the union about "what if the stapler that was in my messenger bag to staple up the signs with had stapled me in the butt when i fell...who would hydrogen peroxide my ass?") anyways, so after i walked rachel to the union, i walked home by myself, and what do you know, it started pouring.

and it made me think. i used to be the kind of person who didn't understand why people hated rain so, i still am that kind of person, to some extent. but not as much. now, it sorta feels bad to have little cold drops of water get all on your clothes and face, etc. but as i was walking, i kept trying to reclaim the kind of person i used to be. and it wasn't as hard as i might have thought it would be. its just instead of looking down, afraid of the water getting into my eyes, i looked across at all the surrounding trees and grass, and cement of the city, and that made everything better. yeah, i was being rained on, but so was everything else, and i am just a point on the map, just like any other tree or leaf, or anything. we as humans try so hard to set ourselves away from the natural world, which is ok, because it is natural for us to have the intellect that we do. what isnt so good, is to assume that there is a difference between nature and the world vs. our creations (cities, buildings, flourescent-lit convenience stores) because we are of nature, therefore, our creations are natural.

whatever. anyways, one last thing. there's this guy in my Sociology, Juvenile Delinquency class. he's a foreigner, from China. so the teacher today, since it's the anniversary of 9-11, asked us our thoughts about it, etc. which i personally think is a little corny because then everyone goes into these gushes of emotion about this and that just using this opportunity to have diarrhea of the mouth about how much they have changed, and how much meaning or fear they have found in life now. i guess there's nothing wrong with that, but i prefer to keep those things to myself in the interest of not coming off to seem overly emotional and sometimes i prefer other people to do the same. but who cares, what i think is not imp. in this case. except for the following. ok so this chinese guy starts talking, and all of a sudden starts saying, "oh i hate how America tries to impose their democracy on all other countries. the reason democracy works in America is because America is a young country, only 200 years old. but china has had a history of 5,000 years, and we have had kings, and emperors, and besides, why try to force democracy onto people when they don't want freedom? people don't want freedom. they always want and need someone to tell them what to do next." argh argh argh it makes me so mad!!!!! for one thing, if he doesn't think America is good, then why did he come here to go to college? and oh, yeah, communism has worked so well, causing such wealth in china...oh wait, no it hasn't. it has caused humanity to regress there to the extent where people can't think for themselves. it has caused bad standards of living, and inhumane acts to be committed without any way of retaliation or stopping these acts. and what is all this about "people need someone to tell them what to do?" ok maybe pussy little communist chinese boys (who have probably only lived after three baby girls before him were abandoned in the streets of china because of the communist incentive of more money for whoever has only one child, and chinese people's unfair preference for fathead boys instead of girls) need someone to direct their every move, but Americans don't. we do very well on our own, with the help of God, and we do not need anyone to "lead" us like the communist government leads their people (into degradation and immorality and godlessness). yeah do you need someone to lead you to your next move communist? go back to china, and open a space for someone to immigrate here who will appreciate the goodness that is America.

thats all i got to say about that, Taiwan til death...