today sucks...

i feel off-center, like i can't do anything right



school is driving me batty and i think maybe i should just turn mute for a few months. it would be easier not having to say anything to anyone so as not to have to think about whether what i've just said is out of place.



except for aaron, i always feel myself when i am around him (also on this list is elissa, cause she knows how retarded and critical i can be already)





today i biked over to the communications building with aaron to see if the film short that i was in turned out ok, and it did. the story was: i am in a tracksuit and ghetto 80's sunglasses. there is a random tv table in a parking lot next to a tree and a dumpster, with flowers and a bottle of sake. i walk up to the table, take a shot of the sake, stand up, and throw up in slow motion...part of his bodily function series i guess (the last one featured jimmy picking his nose disgustingly with corn syrup as fake boogers)--the throw up was clam chowder.

anyways, then we went to burger king where i gave a deaf person a dollar, one of the only good things i have done today, and then i came home and i am writing this.



last night we went to taco cabana and it was cool too. anywhere i can bike feels cool. yay! i love my bike.