Tuesday, December 16, 2008

While looking for my cardy uggs (boy is that a story to tell), I noticed that Oprah had them listed as one of her Top 10 Favorite things of 2008. The fact that I know anything at all about Oprah sickens me, because all I need to know is that she likes to take literary classics like Gabriel Garcia Marquez and act like she's "discovered" them for America. Sadly, (for America), she probably has for many people. Also, the only person who graces the cover of O magazine is...you guessed it, herself! (What other magazine does that???) And basically, she wants to rule the world.

Have you noticed the increased tinge of bitterness that now pervades my blog posts? I used to be happily cynical, now I feel like I am just angry cynical. I don't believe in a thing in the world except the people I know and love (which are few and far between...you know me), books, and creatures, and it has turned me into someone I don't quite recognize.
Shall I tell you more about it? Because I have quite a few embarrassing things to confess--I guess we could call them mental crutches, though they all really just revolve around one thing--shopping. It has become a problem. Not so much a money problem, but a mental problem. It bothers me that if I don't have something I am obsessed with buying or something on the way to me in the mail, I am bored with life and don't know what to do with myself. I actually started working again at the library to support my addiction, so that I can buy the occasional unnecessary item without affecting our budget.
In addition to shopping, I have all of a sudden become obsessed with fashion forums. Why?? I don't have any clue. I all of a sudden know who people such as Kim Kardashian and Ashley Tisdale are, and have opinions on how they dress. It's truly driving me insane. It's such a meaningless pursuit.
The thing is, clothes/shoes/bags are things that I can take an hour out of my life, go to the mall, and buy, that I can then carry around with me while I go through my boring days to keep me cozy and a modicum of entertained. Everything else takes too long--reading books, watching movies, going to the park, etc. These are all outings that I feel too guilty to take hours out of my day to do. And it is driving me absolutely insane.

If you can tell, I really really need this vacation.

In any case, I thought I should have a Top 10 Favorite Things of 2008 post as well. That's what I started out meaning to do, but now I'm too pissed to even do it. Maybe later. My brain feels like there's a fungus in it itching to get out. Oh wait, that fungus is med school.

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