only a few minutes/hours of each day are worth writing about, so...

1.12.04

went grocery shopping with aaron, and cooked frito pies for dinner, baked cookies, and watched how to lose a guy in 10 days and some foreign Gerard Depardieu movie about twins. it was nice, just living, doing normal everyday things. it felt right, like a fulfillment of some image in my mind of what i have always wanted to do with a guy that i am in love with.

1.17.04

Kettering Falls, Austin. with aaron and jimmy. main image: vast expanse of stark, slate colored rocks relieved only by obsidian holes filled with water, each its own mini-universe...these increased in number until reaching the falls themselves.

1.18.04

went to elissa's boyfriend aaron's apt. for a party/video game thing. they had margaritas but i was driving. played tetris a few times with four people on the screen. it was cool, saw rachel and travis together for the first time as a couple...which seemed to fit more than any other guy rachel has been with, he seems nice. got home around 2.

1.23.04

bought stephen king's dark half because it started with an extraction of an 11 yr old boy's brain tumor--"Protruding from the smooth surface of the dura was a single blind and malformed human eye. The brain was pulsing slightly. The eye pulsed with it. It looked as if it were trying to wink at them....In addition to the eye, they found part of a nostril, three fingernails, and two teeth. One of the teeth had a small cavity in it. The eye went on pulsing and trying to wink right up tot he second when Pritchard used the needle-scalpel to first puncture and then excise it...."

"This wasn't cancer....In a great many deliveries where the mother gives birth to a single child, that child actually started existence as a twin. It may run as high as two in every ten. What happens to the other fetus? The stronger absorbs the weaker.....Part of this boy's twin went unabsorbed. It happened to end up in his prefrontal lobe. Usually the only doctors who see something like this are pathologists--it turns up in autopsies....Something set this mass of tissue, which was probably submicroscopic in size a year ago, going again."

cool right?

i also saw Aliens tonight, coolest character: Bishop, with the innocent eyes.

1.21.04 on

been watching the newlyweds marathon, and wednesday night watched the o.c. and then aaron came over to catch the first newlyweds episode of the season (he says he watches it b/c of me, but he's the one who always remembers it's on...)

recently i've been watching the osbournes marathon on mtv and i love ozzy--he is awesome.

and alas, the dearth of mtv is upon me, i have begun to enjoy the maroon 5 song that is always on the commercials: "this love has taken it's toll on me/she said goodbye too many times before/and her heart is breaking in front of me/ and i have no choice cause i won't say goodbye anymore"



and to sum up this weekend...



"it always seems love is not sweet

like in dreams

something falls through

but i don't want that to happen

to me and you...

last saturday you said how you feel will not go away

well all the fishes in the sea

they could not be happier than me"

-jewel