I am having an especially defiant few days. Especially today.
I have an English class that just drives me insane. It's supposed to be this thesis class, but it's descended into talking about all these abstract/political/philosophical things, and there's this one guy in there who always has something to say. In the most complicated, convoluted way possible. Instead of just directly saying what he wants to say, he has to bring in all these "intelligent" allusions to different theories that he apparently spends all his time reading. It's just difficult to watch--every word takes so much thought for him, and in the end, I have no idea what he's said. But maybe that's just cause I'm retarded.
In any case, today we were talking about feminism, etc. and ironically, it was my absolute apathy on the subject that made me uncomfortable. I mean, show me a guy who doesn't take me seriously for the mere fact that I'm a girl and I will happily go kick him in the shins, but I don't see the point in purposely going out to look for slights against all womankind in general, just so we can get all worked up about it and then, in a childish attempt to make things "even," exclude men as much as men have excluded women in the past.

On a completely unrelated subject, I was reading someone else's blog, which was about intelligent design, which got me thinking about it. I actually had heard about it a few weeks ago, and went to their website looking for a statement of their thesis so that I could decide if I was for it or against it, but couldn't find anything. I mean, I was inclined to give it a chance, seeing as I've always had this tension between being religious and yet learning about all this evolution stuff in classes that everyone is so adamant about. But the closest thing that even resembled a thesis on their website was just a bunch of double-speak that attempted to confuse people into thinking there was some merit to it.
And the real point is, why are they trying to get it into schools? I mean, if it were a valid scientific theory, by all means, it should be taught. But if it's just meant to combat the theory of evolution so that kids will be more likely to believe in God, it just seems like a shortcut for people who don't want to take the time to educate their kids at home (as it should be) about God and religion. So that's what I think. And it's not like there's no way to reconcile religion and evolution--I believe most of the scientific evidence about evolution, and I see it as a manifestation of God's work.
Anyways, I've been thinking about this a lot and done some research on it, and this is what I found:
The Miller Experiment, which I had always considered pretty much the most concrete proof of the possibility of evolution, apparently is compromised because now scientists are thinking that the atmosphere of primordial earth was not as much of a reducing environment as they had thought in the 1950s, when the experiment took place.
Which isn't necessarily a big deal, because to me, the fact that amino acids independently appeared in the experiment of their own accord seems pretty amazing and indicative that it's possible anyway.

Ok and finally. Yes, I have voted Republican in the past, and depending on circumstances, I would do it again. Not necessarily because of what's going on now--but what might go on later. Cause you got to think of your own, and seriously? If China bombed Taiwan, the Democrats would probably tilt their heads, sit back in their chairs, and say, "So...I hope this won't affect China's production rates."

"Let's bounce, rock, skate man, I'm ready to roll" --Rancid

Let's take inventory of my life, per the last two weeks and today:
1 Fiance in a faraway place
2 movies rented, synchronized, and watched with said fiance over
cellphones
----->The Virgin Suicides
----->Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow
1 new favorite movie added to top 5
-----> 1. Garden State
-----> 2. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
-----> 3. Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow
-----> 4. Vanilla Sky
-----> 5. Bridget Jones Diary I
1 NEW! pink ipod, inscribed
3 songs bought from itunes, later reformatted to be unprotected mp3's to
celebrate said ipod
----->Something to Talk About, Badly Drawn Boy
----->Red Sweater, Aquabats
----->Hello Tomorrow, Karen O.
1 paper to finish by tomorrow; 0.5% done
1 Chipotle burrito bol consumed
3 nickels coaxed out of me from homeless man outside of chipotle, while
still under the influence of crack in burrito rice
1 demeaning remark from homeless man
1 fantasy about flinging a cup of soda at said homeless man
1 random conversation with guy outside of english class
2 jealous pangs, one for each of the awesome rockers this guy has met:
----->Tim Armstrong
----->Mat Skiba
1 anonymous Reese's peanut butter cup left at my desk at work while I wasn't looking
1 Reese's peanut butter cup unwrapped and then thrown away for fear of being poisoned

I really hope that when I get home today there's a package in front of my door containing...my new inscribed IPOD. I feel super spoiled, but Aaron is a spoiler and is giving me the (better) one that he's getting along with his laptop, and he's getting my old one. So now he'll be a hot punk boy with a pink ipod. eek. I know I would hit on him, fo sho'
So I never did say explicitly that I got that job, but I did, and have been going for a couple of weeks now. It's pretty cool, I feel useful...and I already have an archnemesis. Yeah, sort of, because there's this other intern that goes on the days that I don't, and I get the feeling she works like a speed demon. Which is quite intimidating, this random entity finishing up tasks when I can't finish them before the next day. But I've done the same for her...sometimes, so it's alright--it's just fun to have an archnemesis. She's in good company with Jay Leno. but that's another story.
And here's my new, revised (hopefully permanent) thesis topic, more detailed than in my last post--"Stephen King's 'Salem's Lot in relation to Bram Stoker's Dracula, and where that puts Stephen King in the realm of Gothic literature."
Pretty cool, right?
And! an update on the pet situation. Kennedy (a.k.a. Mousie-poo) is doing good, marking his territory (my arm) a lot LOT. On the bright side, Eek (my danio fish) seems to be in remission from his wierd, bacterial/then fungal fish disease, though he is still on a strict regimen of Pima Fix and Melafix. For a while I thought that was it for poor Eek, but he seems to be getting better so that would be really cool.
Wow that was a long post--in other words...
"I [was] disposed to be gregarious and communicative to-night" (or this afternoon)
Name the book reference and you get ten points.
I feel really odd lately, maybe it's lack of sleep. This post sounds like it's on speed.

I pulled a Jewel Kilcher on Tuesday after my Biochem test--slept at the library on a semi-hidden away couch with the sleeve of the flannel shirt I was using as a blanket shading my eyes from the sun coming through the window. Not quite satisfying...and even worse was how gross I felt walking sleepily to the bathroom to wash my face and fix my contacts.
But man, if there's anything I'm in lack of these days (other than Aaron, who makes an easy number 1 on that list) it's sleep.
Although up until two days ago, it would've been a thesis advisor. My creative writing prof decided not to be my advisor anymore, so now I'm doing a critical thesis--Stephen King in comparison to (more respected) American/Southern Gothic writers i.e. Faulkner, H.P. Lovecraft, or Poe and why that makes him a good writer. And deserving to be studied in schools. Ha, yeah that last part was just a little Jennifer-propaganda.

Yippee! I think I have a job.
Well, not officially yet but I just called them and they said they were trying to get paperwork approved. So that means yes, right?
Anyways, I have just finished two days of classes and the most arduous task I have dealt with is finding PARKING! And it is so bad, I have no energy for anything else. I conserve my energy during classes by dozing and eating snacks, recuperating from the ordeal and gearing up for the upward trek back to the car.
Now I'm going to go consume the biggest crack pipe that exists...or in other words, eat a Chipotle burrito.
Number of Required Summer Reading Books Finished: 0
Number of Crap Books That I Have Read For Fun Since Classes Have Started: 2

By the way...
I been thinkin' 'bout my doorbell.
when you gonna ring it
WHEN YOU GONNA RING IT!

So what are ya'll's (wow that's a texan word) interpretation of that song? I can't get it out of my head, and I have a stinky little interpretation of what he means by doorbell, that I arrived at after Aaron insisted that Jack White does not, indeed, mean his literal doorbell on his door.

So this is how living by yourself is... grilled cheese sandwiches at midnight. mmm.

Right now, I feel like a leper. I haven't seen the light of day for what seems like months. Well, ok, I went to Target last night with Elissa and had a lot of fun, but when I took out the trash today, it felt amazing, the sun warm on my skin and the wind blowing lightly, that I just really can't wait till I can finally have some real fun without feeling guilty because I'm not studying.
Anyways, MCATs are in a week, and after that, Aaron's going to be here, and I want to go to Barton Springs and get sunburnt and sweaty.