today: breaking a favorite cup, winning an auction for a rusty gray filing cabinet for $1.25!, studying, going to Target to buy a tarp, taco C's for dinner, and cutting custom-sized tarp squares to effectively cover the whole backyard.

It's supposed to get down to freezing here for the next two days--there was even a tornado warning this afternoon.
I left the house today in jeans and a tank top, because it was about 65 degrees. When I got outside after school, it was raining and 40 degrees and I was freezing.

But now, the grass should be warm for the next two days, and the gerbils and hamsters are cuddled up in their nests.

That's a pretty cozy thought.


Also, I'm excited about getting my file cabinet, which I will use as a nightstand. I plan to have a small plant for it (maybe my cactus, although maybe not bc it seems happier outside), my lamp that I've had for about 4 years now, and piles of books.

Here's a picture of the covered up grass:

oh poop. I have the hiccups.

Currently I'm trying to acquire a old-looking file cabinet. I had hoped for a green one, but can only find a rusty gray one, so I guess that will have to do. I think I will spray paint it. And then it will be my nightstand.

I can't wait till I can read a book. I have a Charlotte's Web bookmark that is waiting to be used.

Two weeks!!

I just spent an hour on myspace. It has sucked all productivity out of me and I just want to spend an hour more.
But I'm bribing myself with food to get out of the house.

Me and Aaron just added two adventurous robo hamsters to our family of animals!
They are watch-only animals, so hopefully won't take too much time away from Billy and Lars.
We only got them because we saw them at the pet store and they had tunneled through to the cage next to them, which housed other hamsters ten times bigger than them. They would scoot in to the big cage, run around, and when spotted by the giants, scoot back through to the other side.
It was crazy.

Last night, I was on a cleaning spree. I can't tell you how much zen I get from a clean house. I even took a picture of my dust pile.
When Aaron saw the living room, he said it looked "freakishly clean."
It doesn't happen often, but it did last night.

Here's a picture of dinner.

So, I just had a meeting with the associate dean/school psychiatrist about failing my first anatomy test. She acted gingerly toward me, as if I would break down at any moment, and under that type of scrutiny, I almost did.
I seriously almost cried while talking about how frustrating not exceling in classes was making me.
But I didn't. Yay!

Things are actually going well, though.
I've found a place to skateboard, the smoothest parking lot you'll ever find. Except most nights, it's too cold to do anything but stay inside cuddled up in blankets.

And I'm going to kick Anatomy's ass this time around with the help of my tutors, so that I don't have to take it over again. Fucking class.

I just finished reading _the perks of being a wallflower_ by stephen chbosky, and it was great.
I feel like going out to buy my own copy of it (the one I read was a library book) and read it all over again immediately.

Things that made today a good day:
1. I was in no danger of failing my genetics test.
2. Going to the library during my lunch hour.
3. I made a macaroni casserole! (but I burned it a little after doing everything else right)

Things that made today a not so good day:
1. strange ups and downs, one minute, driving around, I felt great. And then later, terrible. For no apparent reason. I'm sick of this.
2. stores that close early, before I want to leave them. Sometimes, all I need are the fluorescent lights of a store and other people around.

Not everything has been great lately.
I've been feeling a great ennui about my life in general lately (what a delightfully pretentious word, ennui), which I do not like.
I need a vacation.
Or just a free weekend.

"When you're holding me, we make a pair of parentheses/there's plenty of space to encase whatever wierd way my mind goes" -the blow

That is a great song.

Also, Stranger Than Fiction is a great movie. Most possibly, in fact, definitely, the best movie I've seen this year.
Maggie Gyllenhaal's character is my new girl-hero.
Which I have many of, of course.
It's definitely going on the top 5, and YOU, yes you, should go see it.

short-term goals:
-learn to make a macaroni casserole
-learn Joni Mitchell's "California" on the guitar
-not fail Anatomy.

Joni Mitchell makes me feel nostalgic, optimistic, and young.

Today was 70% driving, 10% stopping the car to pick some cotton from the roadside and then picking the seeds out of it, 5% waking up to a cat licking (haha I almost wrote "liking its privates" which I guess it would have to to lick them, but that's not what I meant) its privates next to me, and the rest eating at fast food restaurants along the way home.
Me and Aaron met my parents in Wellborn, TX to check out a wedding chapel place--the chapel itself was beautiful--tons of windows and surrounded by green wilderness, but it was too small even for the small wedding we will have, so we have to keep looking. Oh how I hoped to get the reservations over with this weekend.

BUT what I did do this weekend was get pleasantly sloshed with Elissa, and then took her to a movie she did not enjoy very much.

Aaron is playing Bully (a Rockstar videogame) downstairs as I type this.